prepare, prepare, prepare!

Ok, so I think I'm going to have to get a little more anal retentive about planning my meals ahead of time. There's that old saying, "If you fail to plan, you plan to fail." So, I've gone through my cupboards and put together meals for the next few days. I'm hoping that it will keep me on track. I'm also hoping it will keep me from spending the money and calories on eating out. This last paycheck suuuuuucked, so I need to cut corners wherever I can and going through what I have in my cupboards should help. Fortunately, I don't have too much crap in there, so that's good.

Here's an example of what i've put together:
saturday:
breakfast: yogurt with berries and fat free muesli, hard boiled eggwhite
snack: pita puffs with hummus
lunch: turkey dog (no bun) , sauteed corn and a plum
snack: protein shake (EAS chocolate with vanilla soymilk)
dinner: blackened tilapia with sliced mango, sweet potato pancake and a salad
snack or "dessert": pluot

sunday:
breakfast: 3 eggwhites scrambled with taco seasoning, morningstar farms veggie sausage patty cut up and put in a low carb tortilla, banana
snack: bean and corn salad (black and kidney beans, corn, tomato and cucumber)
lunch: tomato, cucumber, avocado and vegan cream cheese sandwich on 100% whole wheat sandwich thins, sweet potato hash (sweet potatoes cubed and sauteed with red onion and course salt in a small bit of olive oil)
snack: protein shake
dinner: salad at work
snack or "dessert": honeydew melon

and so on, and so on. So, now you know what I'm eating this weekend and so do I! I already can't wait for it to be tomorrow so I can get it going!

Oh, and for the record, yesterday I fell off the wagon... again. I drank... a lot. And I ate fried stuff. and I drank some more. And I had some 5 layer dip. And a Reese's PB Cup. And... Taco Bell (GASP!) You know how it is at midnight when you've been drinking for 8 hours. You just don't care. So I got a nacho supreme with no ground beef. And a chicken gordita. AND a caramel apple empanada. I felt guilty the whole time, but that guilt was numbed by the "high" I was getting from all the fatty, sugary goodness.
Today I did really well and worked out really hard at the gym, hoping to counteract some of those calories.
It's weird. I'm thinking in terms of calories now. Inputting all that information into SparkPeople has really helped me realize how many calories some stuff has. According to their program, I should be eating between 1400-1700 calories a day. "Behaving myself," I usually hit right around 1525-1575 and I'm shocked at that! Today I was walking around Sprouts (the grocery store) and I looked at stuff and put lots of things back. I look a lot at carbs also because I consume more than I should. It's weird, but hey, to get something you've never had, you have to do something you've never done, right?